31 May, 2007

Summer reading

| j o a n d i d i o n |

BY DAVE EGGERS

Joan Didion's new novel, "The Last Thing He Wanted," is her first in 12 years. Set in 1984, it centers on Elena McMahon, an American journalist who gets tangled up in the covert sales of American arms in Central America. It is sparely written and tightly plotted and fiercely intelligent — all the sorts of things we've come to expect from Didion.

Some things that you probably know but if not will be helpful in enjoying this interview:

* Didion is married to John Gregory Dunne, and has been for a long time. When she says "we," he makes "we."
* Though she no longer writes the sort of personal-social essays that made up books like "The White Album" and "Slouching Towards Bethlehem," she still contributes journalism and critical essays to magazines like The New Yorker and The New York Review of Books.
* In person she is very small. She is also graceful, personable, warm and funny.

With "The Last Thing He Wanted," I read that you weren't sure how it was going to turn out until you were finished with it.

No, no I wasn't. I wanted to do a very, very tight plot, just a single thread — you wouldn't even see the thread and then when you pulled it at the end everything would fall into place. That was the intention there. But you would go mad if you tried to plot that closely ahead of time. So essentially what you have to do, I found, is you have to make it up every day as you go along. And then you have to play the cards you already have on the table — you have to deal with what you've already said. Quite often, you've got yourself into things that seem to lead nowhere, but if you force yourself to deal with them, that was the discipline of it.

For example, one of the first things I had started with in this book was the idea of this woman walking off a campaign. Because I'd covered some campaigns in '88 and '92, I wanted to use some of that sense of a campaign. So then, I didn't know, then she would go to Miami to see her father. Then, I couldn't figure out where she'd been. Then I decided she ought to be from Los Angeles and had been married to someone in the oil business. That kind of gave me a fresh start. But then I was having to get her from Los Angeles to being a political reporter, right? It was a really hard thing to do. It was also a lot of fun.

There were certain chapters where it does sound like you're starting from scratch almost, when you start hearing about Elena's dreams, for example.


Yeah, I mean, I was just sitting there wondering what I could do that day. Sometimes, also, you just feel it's right to step back from it a little bit. Otherwise it's going to get linear, "and then she said, and then she did..." It doesn't keep you awake to write it.
while your fiction seems to be getting increasingly lean, your essays seem to be moving in the opposite direction.

They're getting denser and denser. There's a whole lot of stuff going on in a piece — you're trying to think it through. Generally, you think about a question or a situation in a more complex way than you would make a scene. Novels are almost like music or poetry — they just come to me in simple sentences, whereas I think my pieces get more and more complex ever since I've started using a computer.

What do you use?

I use an IBM Thinkpad. I just use it like a typewriter, but when I started using it in 1987, I thought I won't be able to write anymore, so I thought I'd go back to the typewriter. But you couldn't go back to the typewriter after using the computer, so finally after about a month I got proficient enough that I could actually work on it without being distracted by it, and in fact then it started making me a whole lot more logical than I ever had been. Because the computer was so logical, it was always right, I was wrong ... and the time saved.

Before I started working on a computer, writing a piece would be like making something up every day, taking the material and never quite knowing where you were going to go next with the material. With a computer it was less like painting and more like sculpture, where you start with a block of something and then start shaping it.

You feel like it's just there ...

It's just there, and sometimes you'll find yourself — you get one paragraph partly right, and then you'll go back and work on the other part. It's a different thing.

Your work feels like it was written by a slow writer. I mean that in the best possible way.

Over the course of several years I had false starts on this novel several times. I couldn't get anywhere with it. Then I had this block of time last fall from the end of August until Christmas, so I just decided I would try to finish it in that period. So I went back and I started, and I did finish it about Christmas time, but that was about as fast as I could work. And a lot of it turned out to already be done in note form to hang together. So this was just running it through with the thread.



There is a character in the book named Bob Weir. Are you a Grateful Dead fan?

[laughs] No, that is where that name comes from, isn't it? I had totally forgotten that. No, I had no idea, I knew there was something just right about that name.

Elena resembles, in certain ways, some of your other characters from some of your other novels, in that she finds herself in the middle of this huge life change, and it's seemingly irreversible, and yet she goes with it. What does that pattern mean to you?

I don't know, it's nothing I want to examine too closely. Every time I do it, I think it's brand new. It comes to me in a flash! [laughs] It would certainly make things easier if I remembered, but it's — I guess all novels are dreams of what might happen or dreams of what you don't want to happen. When you're working on them, it's very much like a dream you're moving in. So, to some extent, obviously, the same characters are going to keep populating your dreams.

Have you ever done something like Elena does here — walked off a campaign, reinvented youself?

Not really, no. But you can see the possibility, it's something you might be afraid of happening. It's definitely something you don't want to happen. I don't want to happen. That's what I would take from it.

I read somewhere that you identified yourself as a libertarian.

I was explaining to somebody what kind of Republican I had been. That was essentially why I had been feeling estranged from the Republican Party per se, because my whole point of view had been libertarian. I mean, I wouldn't call it totally "on the program" libertarian.

You don't vote the ticket?


[laugh] No ... I think the attraction was that it was totally free. It was totally based on individual rights, which, as a Westerner, I was responsive to. Then I started realizing there was a lot of ambiguity in the West's belief that it had a stronghold on rugged individualism, since basically it was created by the federal government. So I haven't come to any hard conclusion, here.

Are you watching the campaign? What do you think of Clinton?

Well, he's the luckiest man alive, isn't he? He seems to be lucky, which I guess in a lot of cultures has been what people wanted. Luck had a kind of totemic power, that made you the leader.

I read your review of Bob Woodward's "The Choice," in The New York Review of Books. It seemed that his lengthy descriptions of his reporterly methods got under your skin.

Yes. There's a certain kind of reporting of a book that when you're casually reading through you think you've missed something, you're not informed here, you've totally missed the point, there must be something more to this than meets the eye. So then I started reading "The Choice" and I had been actually following the campaign in a way until then, so I did know something about it, and I thought, what's going on here? There's nothing here we don't know. And even then, I would sort of doze off every now and then and think "I must be missing this — there must be more to this than I'm finding."

You and your husband wrote the screenplay for "Up Close and Personal." How do you think it turned out?

Well, it turned out — from the beginning, what it was supposed to be was a vehicle for two movie stars, and that's what it was.

You have no illusions, it seems, about the Hollywood game.

Well, if you don't know how to play it you shouldn't be in it. It's always sort of amused me.

I just read an interview with Charles Schultz, the creator of Peanuts. He's a billionaire, of course, and he was asked what his idea of success was — if he considered himself "successful." He said something like, "Yes, because now I feel like I can go into any bookstore, and if I see a book I really like, I can buy it." I thought that was really beautiful. Do you consider yourself successful?

I never feel particularly successful. I always feel like I've not quite done it right, that I ought to be doing better or something. In terms of work, I never felt that I've done it right. I always want to have done it differently, to have done it better, a different way, unlike Charles Schulz. So I don't know. The one time I felt successful was when he [Schultz] put my daughter Quintana's name in a cartoon.

30 May, 2007

Florence Maud Broadhurst





Florence Maud Broadhurst was murdered in her Paddington home in 1977. The murder remains unsolved, but because of apparent lack of motive, it has been widely speculated that she was a victim of serial killer John Wayne Glover who was convicted of murdering six elderly women between 1989-90 and is thought by police to have perhaps been responsible for four other deaths.

In 1959 Broadhurst established Australian (Hand Printed) Wallpapers Pty Ltd., which later became Florence Broadhurst Wallpapers Pty Ltd, advertised as 'the only studio of its kind in the world'. Her brightly-coloured geometric and nature-inspired oversized designs were all hand printed. Advances made in her studio included printing onto metallic surfaces, the development of a washable, vinyl-coating finish and a drying rack system that allowed her wallpapers to be produced in large quantities. By 1972, her wallpapers reportedly contained around 800 designs in eighty different colours while by the mid-1970s, she monopolised the quality end of the Australian market and was exported worldwide.


The 2005 Gillian Armstrong documentary Unfolding Florence - The Many Lives of Florence Broadhurst, details her life and murder. Several books have also been written about her life and designs including the 2006 book Florence Broadhurst: Her Secret and Extraordinary Lives by Helen O'Neill.

Anemone


Name: Comes from "anemos", the greek word for wind. Sometimes called the windflower. Pronounced a-NEM-o-nee

Description: The outsize anemones, which growers have managed to produce in the last few years, are remarkable, and perfect for placing singly in display vases, to show off their fragile beauty. Their ferny leaves make a perfect frame for the flowerheads.

Origin: Eastern part of Mediterranean area and Asia Minor.They are now grown across Europe, particularly Italy and Israel.

Colour: Vibrant shades of red, purple and pink, with jet black hearts ringed with white. The all-white anemone is rare, it has a yellow-green heart.
Availability: Main season September to May

Family: Anemones belong to the buttercup family.The best cut flower varieties are "Mona Lisa" forms, which have large flowers and long, strong stems.

Care Tips: Anemones do not like being out of water for any length of time and take water in quickly, so water levels should be checked regularly. However they should not be placed in water that is too deep

Mythology: It is said that the goddess Flora was jealous of her husband's attentions towards the nymph Anemone and so transformed her into the wind flower and left her at the mercy of the North Wind.

Medicinal: Used for cramping pains, menstrual problems and emotional distress.

28 May, 2007

i bid thee farewell





























"Walking out from Chekov's 3 sisters -I pass by a puddle that spans far out into the street, i walk through the puddle and like a deep tide pool am plunged into ice cold water, it feels as though there are chards of melting ice- trying to get out of it i am plunged back in several times.
i can hear the play beginning from outside, as i return to my seat.
inside-2 girls, two “sisters” are showing each other gestures, as i make my way back the “sisters” are peeking out into the audience and revealing their costumes. (no recollection)

I awoke to my missing window gushing wind into my room-Shrinking Violet had been racing around full of madness, now purring beside me-the sun was rising and i knew that i'd done it again-i haven't done it in a while- a good while. Something snapped, or something unwound that was wound tightly, and it unwound quickly and chaotically, yet somehow looking back the quickness was slow.

I sign off today-i bid thee farewell-oh how dramatic.... and so it feels, yet also empty -i lay there vacant.

Vacant warehouses with drafty rooms and long halls, that i now find lead nowhere.

(Hand holding was meaningless) Thru my tiny missing window crawled a friend from the past, i was sleeping and didn't realize, i was awake and didn't notice-then a knock at the door and if i remember correctly my hand was grabbed and sliced, cut. This past person was upset with me and passionately so. Cut to next location -With my cut palm i met friends for a dinner and Dan Buran sat across from me-surprised-we ended up in a back and forth and he wanted to know about my bandaged palm. He knows the cutter-We are back in the drafty room. You can hear a car starting outside. Dan talks to me, about what, i am unclear. He says he will return. I laugh-i plunge back into the ice water puddle-

Would i now drive to Venice and knock on Dan's door to see who answers?"

Natalie Woods car & coat

There are black birds hunched in the oleander bushes. As we drive home, we pull up next to a truck with metal bars. Inside, something roars, some caged thing pacing, lashing its tail.

We drive up the canyon under the Hollywood sign. It used to say Hollywoodland like Alice in Wonder or Disney but now it just says Hollywood as in wood of hollys. Or Holy Wood. I think people have tried to leap off of it and die, or is that just in books?






Below the canyon stretches out like an umbilical cord to the belly of the city and up we go past the Spanish-style apartments where the girl got raped last week, some man prowling outside her pink stucco walls while she lay on her bed. Broke the glass. Past the canyon market where I worked last summer, packing bags full of yogurts, avocados, peaches, and wine for the canyon people-the long-haired, junky musicians from My Animal and Shocks and Struts, the beautiful lesbian models Rebecca and Sophie, shaved punk kids, artists in paint-spattered clothes and bone jewelry, film types in cowboy boots and jeans carrying scripts.Past the cafe -they all hang out there too-where Claudia and I drink coffee (mine black, hers sugary and milky brown) and smoke at the window booth with the sun dusting in like some kind of drug we want to put in our noses and mouths and veins.

And up where it winds toward the crest of the hill, past the old stone castles, Spanish villas, Moroccan palaces, gabled fairy-tale cottages-all built for movie stars a long time ago. Charlie Chaplin's house that was a fancy whorehouse after that. And the house where Victoria and her daughter, Perdita, and Victoria's various boyfriends all live. It's covered with hibiscus in front and the blue glass windows must make Perdita feel like she is in some kind of a fish tank.

Tucked in the hills is the lake where the runners circle, passing the rusty metal tubing I have nightmares about, going over the bridge with the carved lion heads and the water below getting sucked down into a whirlpool drain.At the top of the canyon are our two houses-Claudia and her mother, Eva's palace and our house. Both of them under the Hollywood sign looking down over the stretch of canyon to the mother belly city like children attached to an old cord.

We live in a house with a tower. The man who built it was a toymaker; he carved the faces over the fireplace and planted the vines that cover the walls and the oleander in the garden. It smells like cedar and eucalyptus, smoke and lavender in this house. There are things everywhere: books, shells, fossils, dried flowers, bird skulls, the antique wooden cherub, the miniature stone sphinx, ivory monkeys, the brass menorah, china dolls with little teeth, the ancient Roman tear vessel that came from a tomb'-hat looks like a fossilized tear itself; the three bronze women stand erect.

*F.L. Block

27 May, 2007

In a field
I am the absence
of field.
This is
always the case.

Wherever I am
I am what is missing.
When I walk
I part the air
and always
the air moves in
to fill the spaces
where my body's been.

We all have reasons
for moving.
I move
to keep things whole.
- Mark Strand

23 May, 2007

lace tape


we have it!

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Alcatraz


Alcatraz Island is covered with flowers now: orange and yellow nasturtiums, geraniums, sweet grass, blue iris, black-eyed Susans. Candytuft springs up through the cracked concrete in the exercise yard. Ice plant carpets the rusting catwalks. “WARNING! KEEP OFF! U.S. PROPERTY,” the sign still reads, big and yellow and visible for perhaps a quarter of a mile, but since March 21, 1963, the day they took the last thirty or so men off the island and sent them to prisons less expensive to maintain, the warning has been only pro forma, the gun turrets empty, the cell blocks abandoned. It is not an unpleasant place to be, out there on Alcatraz with only the flowers and the wind and a bell buoy moaning and the tide surging through the Golden Gate, but to like a place like that you have to want a moat.

I sometimes do, which is what I am talking about here.

diptyque

Des meubles luisantes,
Polis par les ans,
Décoreraient notre chambre:
Les plus rare fleurs
Mêlant leurs odeurs
Aux vagues senteurs de l'ambre,
Les riches plafonds,
Les miroirs profonds,
La splendeur orientale,
Tout y parlerait
A l'âme en secret
Sa douce langue natale.

Lou

LOU DOILLON
Hometown: Paris
Where do you live? Paris, and a little bit here and everywhere.
What do you do? I live adventures, on films, in theaters, in studios, painting, singing, being a mother, reading, listening, running the house with my son!
What are you working on now? A painting and rehearsing a play for March, and drawing a little fashion line for the French brand La Redoute.
Favorite song: I hate favorites. This week, it’s “Lady Grinning Soul” by David Bowie. Tomorrow, I don’t know.

Favorite artist: The same. Could be Patti Smith, Annette Messager, Dorothy Parker, Bukowski, Schiele. Thank God the list is long!
Describe your personal style. French Revolution meets Joséphine, which meets Millais’s Ophelia, wearing Degas’ tutu, Toulouse-Lautrec’s green stockings, Mary Poppins’s boots, and the Artful Dodger’s top hat, kind of with an air hostess hat.
Who’s the sexiest person that ever lived? Lucifer in Milton’s Paradise Lost.
Where do you see yourself in ten years? In a lab-house in the country with the people I care about, and lots of children.
What’s your hidden talent? They’re all hidden. Talents come out when people take the time to greet them.
If you had to choose between love and independence, which would it be? Love. Actual love is free. Sometimes we forget but true love has nothing to do with dependency. Love doesn’t even have to do with being there. There’s nothing to choose from. You just have to seek the balance and reach for the best in you. It’s hard but I’m proud to love a free man, and I think he feels the same.

Spirit Girls

Marnie Weber
LA-based musician, visual artist, and performer Marnie Weber presents early film work as well as her new 16mm film, A Western Song, featuring a live score performed by the artist’s band, The Spirit Girls. The band, which grew out of Weber’s rock opera The Spirit Girls: Songs that Never Die (2005), follows a group of ghost girls on a fairytale-like journey to find a place to perform their songs and tell their tales. The Spirit Girls will conclude the program with a live set of their moody, surreal music.




Friday, May 25
8pm
The Hammer
10899 Wilshire Blvd
Los Angeles, CA 90024

Exene Cervenka at MOCA Art Catalogues

19 May, 2007

part two

"Is it possible to meet each other or to meet the flower, the bird, or the new day without anything interfering? And if the past does come up, to see that it is memory coming up? And not be ruled by it, not be compelled and narrowed down by it? To see it and to wonder whether it has to interfere?


Whether perhaps there is an energy of meeting, of listening and looking, which can disconnect the belief that we think we know what he, she or it is?"












Like in a mirror
When you are here, bring back your light towards the inside.Form and reflection look at each other
Enlighten the surroundings.
You are not the reflection
But the reflection is yourself
Open your hands and refuse nothing.




















tonight- part 1

known sound
After I can no longer see her



she says to me For a while there is all
that asking about how the body becomes
itself as it goes and what it is becoming
what is happening to it where it is going
step by step one moment at a time
and then all that falls aside like a curtain
and the body is gone with its worn questions
hollow joints marrow and breath and instead there is
the way whatever lived in it goes on as itself
neither before nor after neither moving nor still
and while the body was going somewhere
the way was there to begin with in the feet themselves
wherever they went and you know the sound

- W. S. Merwin

Damn good coffee


This just in!....



Dale Cooper: Damn good coffee!

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Chanel Cruise Los Angeles

Chanel normally uses a different kind of tweed for summer-cruise collections. it's really soft, légère....dreamy....







Chanel Cruise Los Angeles! oui, oui!

Chanel Cruise




17 May, 2007

afterall books


Bas Jan Ader: In Search of the Miraculous
Jan Verwoert

Mary Heilmann: Save the Last Dance for Me
Terry R. Myers

Richard Prince: Untitled (couple)
Michael Newman

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